Fusionade's Blog

fusionade — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 12:45:30 +0000

I’m damn stressed till the point that I’m super grumpy and sad.

And I feel guilty for not studying bio already. >.<

And I feel like cursing but I don't think it's appropriate (actually I didn't know felicitous meant appropriate and I wonder if I can use this word here) to curse here because I'm uncomfortable with cursing online. Grawr.

So I shall substitute my curses with something.

^%%#%@#^&%$^$

I feel better.

My brain can only churn out sentences at one time so forgive me for this period of time.

What the shit.

I feel very guilty for being here.

fusionade — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 15:02:04 +0000

How do we know, when we cross the fine line between sanity, and insanity?

Because it feels like I’m toeing the line, but I don’t know which side I originate from.

Everything’s so confusing.

And I’m contradicting myself.

3 more days to A levels.

~~Fuck yeah~~

Yeah.

fusionade — Thu, 05 Nov 2009 16:05:49 +0000

Tell me how you really feel.

Because I really want to know.

Happy 4th Anniversary Super Junior! November 6, 2005, the very first day this awesome idol group debuted. Continue to be awesome, and give me support to last through this tough period.

fusionade — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 15:28:12 +0000

Shit shit shit. How did it turn out to be like this?

Praying for DBSK.

But somehow, I find myself praying for Eunhyuk instead.

fusionade — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 06:00:52 +0000

It’s so touching to see eunteuk so close to boom! ^^

fusionade — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 21:46:57 +0000

I just realized…nearly all my posts these days have to do with Super Junior… (alright maybe i’m obsessed. hmm.)

They should probably ban Super Junior for children under 18. (HEH. Since I just turned 18 yesterday, I’m officially legal to fangirl HAHA.) Like put a label, too distracting for studies, or like too uhh…okay you get the idea. Lol.

Yay. Back to sleep. ^^

fusionade — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 02:23:26 +0000

You can call me an idiot, but I’m smiling much too widely to care.

2 birthday fics at one go?

Awesomeness.

fusionade — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 15:56:49 +0000

Thank God, for introducing Super Junior to me. ^^

Happy Birthday, to me.

fusionade — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 13:53:53 +0000

My final hours as a seventeen year old, childish, immature girl….

I have to say that being 17 is definitely one of the best years of my life, in JC, along with 16. It has been a great year, a fantastic one, to say the least. I made so much more friends, and got closer with those I already have, found myself an idol, cleared up some stuff, got over stuff, and emerging stronger than before.

But still, I’m not looking forward to what happens in 2 hours.

Being 18…means having to shoulder more responsibilities, more burden. I can look at it in an optimistic point of view, but I still want to retain the child side of me. Because…once we grow up, we seem to hide everything within our souls, swallowing everything in, until we cannot take it anymore, and vomit it all out, breaking down.

Where did the child part of us go, all these years, one by one? They disappear, dissipate into the air, gone, with the wind?

Because I can handle more emotions, doesn’t mean I want to.

Happy early birthday to myself, because I don’t know if I can take it, when I turn 18 in 2 hours.

fusionade — Sat, 24 Oct 2009 09:02:44 +0000

I know I’m overprotective of Super Junior at times…defending them no matter what…

But sometimes, that is exactly why I am so proud to be an elf…